Life Update: Jim Anderson

I stopped seeing the counselor, not recently though, I saw him during the last week of February and that was it. No more. When I told him I decided to stop visiting him it was sad...... I'm not a bitch but I almost cried because he has really cared for me as if he was my father and since I've missed out on having a father figure growing up it felt good. It's crazy because "Jim" is also known as "James," which was my fathers name....that's a stupid thing to look at but oh well....I feel like having a father ( a good one, not the one I had ) really would have altered my personality and probably would've made me ready for the world like a "man" my age should be. I'm not a man, I'm still a boy and it's because I was raised only by my mother with no male figure to guide me, I've had to learn as I go, trial and error.....I'm not making excuses or taking credit away from my mother because she did raise me correctly as far as society goes.... but women don't have what it takes to tell a man how to be a man because they aren't men....

Anyway, back to the counselor.....even though it's his job I know he really had interest in helping me out. I figured that he has said and done everything he could to help me out mentally/emotionally and there was nothing more he could do for me. I still have his number but I haven't called him even though I feel like calling sometimes. So since I've been "on my own" I guess I've been doing fine. I think he's embedded in my head how to handle certain situations mentally when I get depressed, it's just hard sometimes.....


Eric Davis