Life Update: Alone

My counselor is a very cool person and I can talk to him whenever I want, I appreciate the great deal of advice he's given me and he has labeled himself as my friend, invited me to his home and his sons BMX tournaments....but.....I need friends that are in my age bracket man!!!! ahaha....this guy is my mothers age, he's my shrink...he doesnt do what I like to do, he's a parent with a wife.

I looked through my phonebook earlier, and I started texting everyone asking them if there was anything going down tonight because I wanted to free my mind, just drink and have a good time.... some didnt text back and some responded not knowing that I still had their number. I've kept a close circle of only two male friends....which now don't even speak to me....and a couple of girlfriends which have boyfriends so in respect of their boyfriends I keep my distance....I've only been kickin it with one girl lately which is "Bri," and I don't want to smother her because girls need space.

People don't make me happy, in fact, I dislike people lol.....but...when i'm surrounded by the right people...I feel the best....if you know me...then you know that my goofy, careless, and free spirited attitude unleashes when i'm around people that make me feel comfortable enough to be myself. I just wanna drink tonight, I just wanna laugh tonight, I just wanna have company, I just want real, ginuine, dependent, understanding, fun, and uncritical...... friends.