Suicide.

I almost took my own life last year. Never have I been at such a low point where I felt like nobody cared if I was alive or not, it was a cry out for attention and love.

I'm awake late just thinking about that time last year, it's so embarrassing, because it's not normal to want to die. There are some people with worse lives than I have and they still manage to keep their sanity and continue living on.

I guess life is based on how strong you are mentally and obviously at that time I was very weak....
But...
I am thankful that I survived my attempt to kill myself because I am stronger now, I know that I'd rather just stick through all the hard times and enjoy whatever good comes in my life than to drown in the depression and make it end my life earlier than it's supposed to end.

To anyone that wants to commit suicide, I don't blame them, life is horrible, really horrible... but there is nothing that can be done about that....so we have to do the best we can to be happy regardless of what life throws at us.....be courteous to the people who do care about you and want you to live, stay alive for them, if you feel that there is no one out there who cares that you live, it's not true, because you care enough about yourself to cry, feel pain and depression so that's all that matters... We all want to feel loved, but what's better than loving yourself? Practice being alone more often, enjoying time alone to find yourself instead of depending on other company to make you feel self worth, it sounds crazy, but that's how I get through shit sometimes.