Life Update: Clearing my system

I had a phone conversation with my counselor....I told him it's hard and the stupid clear cube wasn't working for me much anymore. He told me another solution is to go somewhere and take my anger out and instead of trying not to think of everything that makes me angry or sad, think about it.

So late last night I drove to a secluded area on top of a hill.... and then I got out of my car and screamed at the top of my lungs everything I hate about my life, I started running, still screaming, kicking rocks, kicking dirt, throwing dirt, throwing rocks, any plants that were near me I tried to rip out...my jeans got really dirty, my shirt and shoes got practically ruined, I did that for 20 minutes straight until I got really exhausted........I ran around in the desert screaming and tearing shit up all that time and then I walked back to my car, reclined the seat back and went to sleep.

It was night time so I couldnt really see anything because it was dark but when I woke up....I laughed because I saw myself in the rear view mirror....my face, eyelashes and hair were caked with dirt ahahha.... man....I snuck back in my house so my mother wouldn't see me all dirty and I took a good shower.

Oh yeh another thing..... last night I left my car running the whole time while I was going crazy....I was playing the Metallica album "Master of Puppets" ...man that album is soooo fuckin dope when ur heated....i'll fuck you up to that shit....so don't catch me listening to it and try to piss me off if im mad about something....cuz it's an adrenaline builder for sure....especially the two songs "Battery" and "Master of Puppets" lol....I suggest it especially if you're into the hard shit.....yeah muthafucka.

Thanks for reading.